HEHE. That's an exaggeration la. So yesterday, I decided to go jogging. I came home from school, read a book then I realised I was going to drive myself crazy if I stayed cooped up at home. So, I put on those shoes I was so excited about last year, and went jogging -.- I ran 3 rounds then gave up and walked the other two :P WHEN I WAS DONE, THE HELL. My ears hurt SO BAD. I felt the bloood throbbing in my ears and I checked in some dude's car mirror, they were RED.
After jogging, went over to patti's hse. Took Aggy for a walk. HEHE. I remember wondering, when I was younger how people could call small kids, baby and sayang, and darling and all that. I remember thinking, I would neevr call a kid tht ever...it'd be so eww. And here I am, doing it. Think it starts to get normal with age.
Wheee...what else? School was ok lah. Tutored Hamsa in Form 3 sej. Hope I helped :S Sej exam...science...was all ok. I feel like PMR's over edi. WHY OH WHY DIDNT I STUDY KH? Now I have to memorise this nxt three days. -.-
ANDREW CHOO TODAY! Oh yeahhh, I saw Hanisha after such a long time. She's with Arvin :P I asked her about coming to Assunta. She said she didn't wanna cuz one, it was an all girls school and two, she'd already fought with Nisha and Amanda(godknowswhy) so she didn't wanna come. How sad :(
OHMAGOSH! YESTERDAY! JOHN PICKED ME UP FROM SCHOOL. He was unbelievably late...not surprised. BUT HIS DRIVING. IS SO COOL! He drives like so selamba ny.. He accelerates for no reason...makes BIGG turns like he's drifting. HAHAHA, it was aweosme. CANT WAIT TO GET A CAR! So we sent Shivon and Karen home and it was just me and him. So he's like, I don't wanna go home yet, let's go rounding. I'm like okaaaayyy. So we talked bout music and school, his MasCom course. He let me take the wheel :P I almost knocked into a car... HAHA. It was cool :) Guess that's what it would be like to have a brother....
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Loooooooowww :P
AHAHAHA. I finally have a song to be obsessed with. Pitbull ft Timbaland. OHMAGAWD. Finally they did a collab. HERE IT IS.
http://youtu.be/ZYJVKT0V-9U
I LOVE this. He's singing about crap but yeah..the beat <3 And the red flamingo suits thinggies...are so (Y):P AH AH.
Sooo..lets see, BM, English, Geo down....only Science, Math, KH and Sejarah left. LA LA LA LA :D Lil' bit more. Not much of a difference laaa..before exam and after exam. I'm still online everyday, reading books... Only thing that's different is I don't have my phone.
GUESS WHAT? I'm still not sure about France yet. But Gugu says she is DEFNITELY taking us all to Phuket for like a week. And Amma is like we're defniely going to Sabah. HO YEAH. My holidays are gonna be awesome.
So rite now, I'm busy trying to map out what Imma do after PMR. I wanna lose myself in something. Something...cool. Something I love. Till I figure out what that something is, here's what I have planned till now.
1) Weights
2) Exercising
3) FOOTBALL!
4) Guitar lessons
5) Racing
6) Sleep all day, play all night :P
7) SHOPPING!
I wanna go Ipoh...Sanjeevan anneh and Mathu ka asked me to come...take the train or soemthing. But in my dreams la amma will lemme go. WTF imma try asking her. BUT I SO WANNA GO. If oly I could spend Deepavali there or something :( Haaa..I dunno what we have planned for this Deepavali. SHOPPING! Oh yeah, I'll add that to my list :P
Then there's that Melaka trip in two weeks. I'm still so :S about it. Something's telling meh I shouldn't go. Everytime I think about it...I get thi epic sinking feeling...but we'll see la.
Schoooooooooool. HAHAHA. Today was so cool. Moni and her whole 'special gift' to Lusha. :D
And zis feeling, the whole defensive mode is still there. I hope it doesnt go away anytime soon! HAAA <3 Quoi aussi? AH. Courir. Attendreee...it will happen. Tactical expert playing the field yaww. I just need to hold on. And maybe, at the end of it, who knows, I may not get what I wanted, but maybe I'll get something even better :)
PATIENCE CHILD. PATIENCE.
http://youtu.be/ZYJVKT0V-9U
I LOVE this. He's singing about crap but yeah..the beat <3 And the red flamingo suits thinggies...are so (Y):P AH AH.
Sooo..lets see, BM, English, Geo down....only Science, Math, KH and Sejarah left. LA LA LA LA :D Lil' bit more. Not much of a difference laaa..before exam and after exam. I'm still online everyday, reading books... Only thing that's different is I don't have my phone.
GUESS WHAT? I'm still not sure about France yet. But Gugu says she is DEFNITELY taking us all to Phuket for like a week. And Amma is like we're defniely going to Sabah. HO YEAH. My holidays are gonna be awesome.
So rite now, I'm busy trying to map out what Imma do after PMR. I wanna lose myself in something. Something...cool. Something I love. Till I figure out what that something is, here's what I have planned till now.
1) Weights
2) Exercising
3) FOOTBALL!
4) Guitar lessons
5) Racing
6) Sleep all day, play all night :P
7) SHOPPING!
I wanna go Ipoh...Sanjeevan anneh and Mathu ka asked me to come...take the train or soemthing. But in my dreams la amma will lemme go. WTF imma try asking her. BUT I SO WANNA GO. If oly I could spend Deepavali there or something :( Haaa..I dunno what we have planned for this Deepavali. SHOPPING! Oh yeah, I'll add that to my list :P
Then there's that Melaka trip in two weeks. I'm still so :S about it. Something's telling meh I shouldn't go. Everytime I think about it...I get thi epic sinking feeling...but we'll see la.
Schoooooooooool. HAHAHA. Today was so cool. Moni and her whole 'special gift' to Lusha. :D
And zis feeling, the whole defensive mode is still there. I hope it doesnt go away anytime soon! HAAA <3 Quoi aussi? AH. Courir. Attendreee...it will happen. Tactical expert playing the field yaww. I just need to hold on. And maybe, at the end of it, who knows, I may not get what I wanted, but maybe I'll get something even better :)
PATIENCE CHILD. PATIENCE.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Full of shit
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ha. That felt good. But I wanna scream some more. There's this feeling building up in me. Like...frustration and anger and confusion all at once. Its about so many things. I wish I could point fingers, but I have no one but myself to blame :/ No one else is helping either!!
This is so frustrating annoying mind boggling and ARGH. Aiyooooh today sum more :/ In its order from the least important. 1) N, you gotta find a way of dealing with this. QUIT TELLING MY FRIENDS STUFF ABOUT ME! I promise I will shut up about you, but you're not helping yourself, telling ppl stuff you shouldn't. If you like me, keep it to yourself. Don't tell my friends cuz it'll come to me and that doesnt help me like you any better! AAAH! I wish I could help you :/ I'll tell hamsa ut im not sure she'll listen. Good luck man.
2) ................................. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like stabbing myself.
3) Fear. And worry. You wouldnt believe how much....over...eww. Need. :S I am so shallow its unbelievable :S
4) I dont understand. I dont understand. I dont understand. I can't wait for stupid school to end. I wish I had somewhere else. Like like, FC before. -.- Or...football. I dont even do that anymore. School has become such a big part...it never really was. Ewwwwwww. :S Hehe, amma's so worried about me :P She's gonna send me for wtv class i want, she even volunteered to pay for Actors Studio, haha. :P
Recurring words used to describe me, dumb and useless, and moronic. O.o Am I really that daft? I dont even KNOW. Aiiii.....
OHHH Pmr, in three days. Ngeheheheh :P I'm pretty scared rite now....especially for BM. Essay and all... The rest, I'm pretty sure I'll do alrite :)
There's a Melaka trip...Hamsa payed for me. Not sure if I should go. Everytime I think about it, I get a sinking feeling like...nuh uh...you really DO NOT wanna go. I dunno whether to ignore that or what? :S See I'm thinking about goin to Melaka right now...and I still get that low feeling. See la. Mummy says okay to letting me go...but once she said that, she was like, 'do you really wanna go?' I didn't answer. And she's like "it doesnt matter about the money. If you don't want to go, you don't have to'. WELL.
So, here was yet another blog post dedicated to my deteoriating life. Full of shit. That's what K said. And yeah, as I read this stupid post again, I realise, I could've avoided all of this. -.- GRRRRRRR. I do get myself in these stuations I'm stuck in not to mention how I feel. WHAT DO I DO?
Darn...can't school end already?
Ha. That felt good. But I wanna scream some more. There's this feeling building up in me. Like...frustration and anger and confusion all at once. Its about so many things. I wish I could point fingers, but I have no one but myself to blame :/ No one else is helping either!!
This is so frustrating annoying mind boggling and ARGH. Aiyooooh today sum more :/ In its order from the least important. 1) N, you gotta find a way of dealing with this. QUIT TELLING MY FRIENDS STUFF ABOUT ME! I promise I will shut up about you, but you're not helping yourself, telling ppl stuff you shouldn't. If you like me, keep it to yourself. Don't tell my friends cuz it'll come to me and that doesnt help me like you any better! AAAH! I wish I could help you :/ I'll tell hamsa ut im not sure she'll listen. Good luck man.
2) ................................. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like stabbing myself.
3) Fear. And worry. You wouldnt believe how much....over...eww. Need. :S I am so shallow its unbelievable :S
4) I dont understand. I dont understand. I dont understand. I can't wait for stupid school to end. I wish I had somewhere else. Like like, FC before. -.- Or...football. I dont even do that anymore. School has become such a big part...it never really was. Ewwwwwww. :S Hehe, amma's so worried about me :P She's gonna send me for wtv class i want, she even volunteered to pay for Actors Studio, haha. :P
Recurring words used to describe me, dumb and useless, and moronic. O.o Am I really that daft? I dont even KNOW. Aiiii.....
OHHH Pmr, in three days. Ngeheheheh :P I'm pretty scared rite now....especially for BM. Essay and all... The rest, I'm pretty sure I'll do alrite :)
There's a Melaka trip...Hamsa payed for me. Not sure if I should go. Everytime I think about it, I get a sinking feeling like...nuh uh...you really DO NOT wanna go. I dunno whether to ignore that or what? :S See I'm thinking about goin to Melaka right now...and I still get that low feeling. See la. Mummy says okay to letting me go...but once she said that, she was like, 'do you really wanna go?' I didn't answer. And she's like "it doesnt matter about the money. If you don't want to go, you don't have to'. WELL.
So, here was yet another blog post dedicated to my deteoriating life. Full of shit. That's what K said. And yeah, as I read this stupid post again, I realise, I could've avoided all of this. -.- GRRRRRRR. I do get myself in these stuations I'm stuck in not to mention how I feel. WHAT DO I DO?
Darn...can't school end already?
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Band concert,wtv else
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Leila is going to La Reunion for 3 months. 3 WHOLE BLOODY MONTHS. WHO THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO TALK TO IN CLASS NOW?? I hate her. Hate her hate her hate her hate her hate her. :P But she was super excited to leave today. Shes going to see her daddy...good for her la :) Will miss you dude... get home soon xoxo,
French exam today! :O Wasn't so bad. Can you believe I spoke for three minutes in French without stopping? Een I couldn't elieve it. Miriam was super impressed. The other parts were okay too...except fro the essay writing. God knows what I crapped but I know it was bad :S
Got an interview tomorrow for the AFS thing. I hope I make a good impression and make it through. And then....its off to France in December! :D
Band concert was yesterdaaay! :D Pumi, Carmen, Sangeeta all came over to the house to change and whatever. OMG. I can't remember laughing so hard in such a long time! Even Sangeeta felt it and I know it. Its like being so freeeee like that. Laughing witihout thinking :P Damn nice. In school and when they came home. I finally told Sangeeta what was bothering me. I know she has lots of things to say to me...and Imma keep bugging her for it :D
Band concert itself was....lame. We all didn't know any of the stupid songs they were playing! I was so mad when Sangeeta and Abi ran off into some dark classroom. Idiots! -.- SO STUPID. Get possesed ny then you'll know la. Dahlah your hair all hanging around like some ghost. Who's gonna know the difference if you get possesed or not??! -.- But they both looked real pretty yesterday. They have really awesome hair, the both of them :) Me and Kim and Shan hung out most of the time, I sat with them... I scared them with my ghost stories. They both looked like they were gonna cry at one point :O HAHAH. Hanging out was cool la :) AND OMG, the school looks so awesome at night! Someday, must go exploring :D
Texting Abi now. We are kononnya supposed to be fighting...but its impossible -.- SERIOUSLY. THis is so weird :/ I still feel like fighting with someoe! Anyone! She's making me laugh! Eeesssh.
Apparently Flo's performing in a concert on Monday :'( Too bad I can't go watch.
Signing off...need to get an early night. Leaving for the interview really early tom! :S
xoxo
Moi.
French exam today! :O Wasn't so bad. Can you believe I spoke for three minutes in French without stopping? Een I couldn't elieve it. Miriam was super impressed. The other parts were okay too...except fro the essay writing. God knows what I crapped but I know it was bad :S
Got an interview tomorrow for the AFS thing. I hope I make a good impression and make it through. And then....its off to France in December! :D
Band concert was yesterdaaay! :D Pumi, Carmen, Sangeeta all came over to the house to change and whatever. OMG. I can't remember laughing so hard in such a long time! Even Sangeeta felt it and I know it. Its like being so freeeee like that. Laughing witihout thinking :P Damn nice. In school and when they came home. I finally told Sangeeta what was bothering me. I know she has lots of things to say to me...and Imma keep bugging her for it :D
Band concert itself was....lame. We all didn't know any of the stupid songs they were playing! I was so mad when Sangeeta and Abi ran off into some dark classroom. Idiots! -.- SO STUPID. Get possesed ny then you'll know la. Dahlah your hair all hanging around like some ghost. Who's gonna know the difference if you get possesed or not??! -.- But they both looked real pretty yesterday. They have really awesome hair, the both of them :) Me and Kim and Shan hung out most of the time, I sat with them... I scared them with my ghost stories. They both looked like they were gonna cry at one point :O HAHAH. Hanging out was cool la :) AND OMG, the school looks so awesome at night! Someday, must go exploring :D
Texting Abi now. We are kononnya supposed to be fighting...but its impossible -.- SERIOUSLY. THis is so weird :/ I still feel like fighting with someoe! Anyone! She's making me laugh! Eeesssh.
Apparently Flo's performing in a concert on Monday :'( Too bad I can't go watch.
Signing off...need to get an early night. Leaving for the interview really early tom! :S
xoxo
Moi.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
YGHBMCZ
Listening to Ay Chico. ALAAAMAAAAK. It reminds me of last year, ahahahaha, rushing to finish crap homework knowing that I will be late for school then hurrying up. Hmm.
Wanna know what's up with me? Figure it out. The one I told you Carmen....erm. Forget bout it :P HAHAHAHA. Haaaaaa :S
Jecinn knows? O.o ABI. -.- But actually, I dont really care. WTV LA :)
Shan says I've changed a lot.... But no, I haven't. I'm just doing the right thing as usual. Although knowing I could turn things around anytime gives me a strange sense of...satisfaction? :P DUNNO LA. But I'm not mean and even if I don't have a heart, I have righteousness. So there. If you think I've changed, too bad...., deal with it.
Tata's not doing so well in the hospital now. :/ I wanna go see him! I don't wanna regret anything again like Aggelan anneh. :S
I'm reading this book called Tamar. OMG. Its already making me cry! Its THAT good! <3
OHMYGOD. Know what happened today? Me and Abi were fighting for Sangeeta's pencilbox when the keychain's all....broke apart. Mine and Carmen's stayed together. But Abi's and Sangeeta's....seperated :S Thenn...on the photo paper thing, MY GOD. Mine and Carmen's name was together, thier names were seperated. I...dunno la. Superstitions. You know I believe in em' rite? Dammit.
WALAAAAMAAAAK. Hav a Sivik play tom! Can't wait! :D Its gonna be so cool. But I gotta memorise lines and stuff :S And I havent done math homework...blah blah blah! So many things -.- Jesus christ. Debate was cool today though.
OH OH. Just read this somewhere...
Saying this I don't mean. Meaning things I don't say.
Coolness. Ciao. BAD :P
Wanna know what's up with me? Figure it out. The one I told you Carmen....erm. Forget bout it :P HAHAHAHA. Haaaaaa :S
Jecinn knows? O.o ABI. -.- But actually, I dont really care. WTV LA :)
Shan says I've changed a lot.... But no, I haven't. I'm just doing the right thing as usual. Although knowing I could turn things around anytime gives me a strange sense of...satisfaction? :P DUNNO LA. But I'm not mean and even if I don't have a heart, I have righteousness. So there. If you think I've changed, too bad...., deal with it.
Tata's not doing so well in the hospital now. :/ I wanna go see him! I don't wanna regret anything again like Aggelan anneh. :S
I'm reading this book called Tamar. OMG. Its already making me cry! Its THAT good! <3
OHMYGOD. Know what happened today? Me and Abi were fighting for Sangeeta's pencilbox when the keychain's all....broke apart. Mine and Carmen's stayed together. But Abi's and Sangeeta's....seperated :S Thenn...on the photo paper thing, MY GOD. Mine and Carmen's name was together, thier names were seperated. I...dunno la. Superstitions. You know I believe in em' rite? Dammit.
WALAAAAMAAAAK. Hav a Sivik play tom! Can't wait! :D Its gonna be so cool. But I gotta memorise lines and stuff :S And I havent done math homework...blah blah blah! So many things -.- Jesus christ. Debate was cool today though.
OH OH. Just read this somewhere...
Saying this I don't mean. Meaning things I don't say.
Coolness. Ciao. BAD :P
Monday, June 20, 2011
Oblivescence
That means to forget.
I AM FORGETTING.
Good for me....but.
BAND CONCERT! I am pretty excited :P Abi I tell you-.- What can be SUUUCCCHH a good reason that you wouldnt come?
Sometimes, I feel like screaming how I feel, crying in anger then stamping my foot and running out. But I know I'll never. Because I'm....me. I'm not very sane iside at the moment. I feel like time bomb waiting to explode. One day, when I KNOW I'm ready, then I will.
ERMERMERM, I got screwed by Mummy this morning! I told her bout everything....you know....how I felt and stuff. Cried and wtv. Then amma told me to do something....which I didnt do....but I know I should've done.... Yeah. She was pretty mad at me. She say that IM a problem :P
Whoooooaaaaa. I dont care about so many things right now. I'm forgetting A LOT of important stuff, and its scary. Guess it proves how unimportant stuff like that is becoming rite?
Do you know what FREEDOM means? To be responsible neither to anyone nor for anyone. If onnlyy.... I feel like Jack Sparrow. In the second? movie maybe, he says he wants to be FREE. Define free....
School is................. IDK how to describe it. Cool la. But. BUT. BUUUUT
Abi gave me another keychaaaain! P stands for princess? AHAHAHA. Okay :P Im so sorry about the other one, i feel awful :S But thank you syng.
I like the word sweetheart. HAHAHHAHA. I was watching some of the VDSeason2 and Damon said sweetheart. MY GAWD. He sounded so HOT. I know Abi's word is princess and angel but hahaha, Damon says them in the book too! So everytime she calls herself princess or angel...I think.....:P
DAAAAAAAMN. There's so much going on this week. Tuesday-Friday is debate. GOTTA STUDY OMG. Then Saturday got French exam :S Sunday, AFS interview. GOTTA ACE IT AND GO TO FRANCE BABEYH! Imagine, two WHOLE months in France....and I get to skip like a month of school! :P HEAVEN! Except... Yeah. NO SCHOOL.
LUNATICISIM, something I think of everytime I see Sangeeta :P THAT SELENA GOMEZ SONG, for Carmen. OBSESSION another word that reminds me of Sangeeta. -.-
Anything else to talk about? NOPE. GREAT! Im done :D
I AM FORGETTING.
Good for me....but.
BAND CONCERT! I am pretty excited :P Abi I tell you-.- What can be SUUUCCCHH a good reason that you wouldnt come?
Sometimes, I feel like screaming how I feel, crying in anger then stamping my foot and running out. But I know I'll never. Because I'm....me. I'm not very sane iside at the moment. I feel like time bomb waiting to explode. One day, when I KNOW I'm ready, then I will.
ERMERMERM, I got screwed by Mummy this morning! I told her bout everything....you know....how I felt and stuff. Cried and wtv. Then amma told me to do something....which I didnt do....but I know I should've done.... Yeah. She was pretty mad at me. She say that IM a problem :P
Whoooooaaaaa. I dont care about so many things right now. I'm forgetting A LOT of important stuff, and its scary. Guess it proves how unimportant stuff like that is becoming rite?
Do you know what FREEDOM means? To be responsible neither to anyone nor for anyone. If onnlyy.... I feel like Jack Sparrow. In the second? movie maybe, he says he wants to be FREE. Define free....
School is................. IDK how to describe it. Cool la. But. BUT. BUUUUT
Abi gave me another keychaaaain! P stands for princess? AHAHAHA. Okay :P Im so sorry about the other one, i feel awful :S But thank you syng.
I like the word sweetheart. HAHAHHAHA. I was watching some of the VDSeason2 and Damon said sweetheart. MY GAWD. He sounded so HOT. I know Abi's word is princess and angel but hahaha, Damon says them in the book too! So everytime she calls herself princess or angel...I think.....:P
DAAAAAAAMN. There's so much going on this week. Tuesday-Friday is debate. GOTTA STUDY OMG. Then Saturday got French exam :S Sunday, AFS interview. GOTTA ACE IT AND GO TO FRANCE BABEYH! Imagine, two WHOLE months in France....and I get to skip like a month of school! :P HEAVEN! Except... Yeah. NO SCHOOL.
LUNATICISIM, something I think of everytime I see Sangeeta :P THAT SELENA GOMEZ SONG, for Carmen. OBSESSION another word that reminds me of Sangeeta. -.-
Anything else to talk about? NOPE. GREAT! Im done :D
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Aggelan Anneh
I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS.
I feel like............. I dont know. Aggelan anneh, memba the one that used to come over play with us and stuff? Yeah? He just died. Some heart disease....and....he just passed away. HE PASSED AWAY. I can't believe it. I wanna cry. I feel so....stunned. HE'S 21! This is so unfair! How could this happen to him? To one of US? WHY WHY WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE?????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I wanna scream. I bet Vicky akka feels even worse than I do. She slept so exhausted jsut now, and she's like some ghost. He passed away this morning in Ipoh.... I...duunno la. HE'S SO YOUNG. We didn't even go visit him much cuz we thought he'd get better. *slaps self* haih. Thing is....he's gone now and.........:'( I'll miss you anneh! Wherever you are, may it be a party worthy of you! Love ya! :'(
I feel like............. I dont know. Aggelan anneh, memba the one that used to come over play with us and stuff? Yeah? He just died. Some heart disease....and....he just passed away. HE PASSED AWAY. I can't believe it. I wanna cry. I feel so....stunned. HE'S 21! This is so unfair! How could this happen to him? To one of US? WHY WHY WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE?????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I wanna scream. I bet Vicky akka feels even worse than I do. She slept so exhausted jsut now, and she's like some ghost. He passed away this morning in Ipoh.... I...duunno la. HE'S SO YOUNG. We didn't even go visit him much cuz we thought he'd get better. *slaps self* haih. Thing is....he's gone now and.........:'( I'll miss you anneh! Wherever you are, may it be a party worthy of you! Love ya! :'(
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Not on the same page anymore.
Today was an eye opener :/
In a BAD way. HAHA.
Sangeeta was like wait till Elena comes along.
All I can think is hahaha, it took Damon a couple of lifetimes long to find her. What makes ME think I'll find an Elena in one?
Recreating :). And you know what that meaaaansss......?
Hint: NOTHING GOOD.
In a BAD way. HAHA.
Sangeeta was like wait till Elena comes along.
All I can think is hahaha, it took Damon a couple of lifetimes long to find her. What makes ME think I'll find an Elena in one?
Recreating :). And you know what that meaaaansss......?
Hint: NOTHING GOOD.
Carmen
Wow. This girl has it even worse than i though she does. Today, she cried in school...so after school, she told us(me sang abi) why she cried. And omg, i felt down all day through becuase of this. Even now :S I couldnt get it out of my head!!!! How do u live in that hellhole Carmen? :( Dude, I can't believe your family treats you like that. They are a shit bunch of people excluding your mom and they'll all rot in HELL for doing this to you and your mother TRUST ME. When she told me, I could only see red. I was SO MAD for her, SO SAD for her, like....I would do anything for you dude. If it means helping you through this fucking wolf pack you call family.
Now...I dont blame you at all for being closed up. Im gonna start crying again thinking about it. LIKE AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Carmen. I can't believe you have to live through this everyday. Not to mention the shit you go through at school too. I would chagne places with you any day. If it means you being truly happy :S. I WISH I COULD DO MORE TO HELP. I know you know that studying's the only way out of this. Screw XinYenn, screw your shit family, you do whatcha gotta do. Someday, when you're grown up adn driving a Merc, drive up to those *&^%^&%$#@!#$ and rub it in their faces. -.- Haih. Never cursed so much ever. And there's more running through ma head.
I hope you know, Id always be here for you. Even if I DID betray your trust, but I'll always be here for you. And I don't trust myself to stay even if you DO let me in. YOU CAN COUNT ON ME! So, I hope you read this, and know I'm here for ya. Anytime you feel like screaming, crying or whatever call me. If I dont call you back Don't take it personally. It's just the grandmother I am. Haih. Wish I could do more. But remember, need anything, just ask. I'll do it for you. Anything. I promise you that.
And now Carmen, your blog....thank you for trusting me. Least with that. I won't read it. Although I have a burning desire to. :)
Now...I dont blame you at all for being closed up. Im gonna start crying again thinking about it. LIKE AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Carmen. I can't believe you have to live through this everyday. Not to mention the shit you go through at school too. I would chagne places with you any day. If it means you being truly happy :S. I WISH I COULD DO MORE TO HELP. I know you know that studying's the only way out of this. Screw XinYenn, screw your shit family, you do whatcha gotta do. Someday, when you're grown up adn driving a Merc, drive up to those *&^%^&%$#@!#$ and rub it in their faces. -.- Haih. Never cursed so much ever. And there's more running through ma head.
I hope you know, Id always be here for you. Even if I DID betray your trust, but I'll always be here for you. And I don't trust myself to stay even if you DO let me in. YOU CAN COUNT ON ME! So, I hope you read this, and know I'm here for ya. Anytime you feel like screaming, crying or whatever call me. If I dont call you back Don't take it personally. It's just the grandmother I am. Haih. Wish I could do more. But remember, need anything, just ask. I'll do it for you. Anything. I promise you that.
And now Carmen, your blog....thank you for trusting me. Least with that. I won't read it. Although I have a burning desire to. :)
Monday, May 30, 2011
First day of hols.
Waaaaaliaaaaaaaaaoooo. My kred's gonna finish. O.o
I feel so pathetic. All this thinking can't be healthy for one person. HAHAHA, I just read this somewhere. Avoidance brings a cure. Hmm..
Can you believe I did four chapters of sej and read science chapters 1-5 yesterday? SERIOUSLY. I am AMAZED at myself. I did this in three hours flat! Morning, I Mapled, then I slept in the afternoon, then watched A LOT of tv, then read and WAAASSSTEDDD more time :P.
Planning to go watch Insidious this Sunday. Hope everyone can make it. With Kas and gang, I think we'll go out sometime next week. Not sure who to call though :/
INSIDIOUS
1. Working or spreading harmfully in a subtle or stealthy manner: insidious rumors; an insidious disease.
2. Intended to entrap; treacherous: insidious misinformation.
3. Beguiling but harmful; alluring: insidious pleasures.
Insidious pleasures eh? Sounds tasty ;) The trailer is freaking scary. But its probably gonna be like some typical boy-being-haunted-in-new-house movie.
xoxoxo
Rire. Sourire. :) Je m'en fiche.
I feel so pathetic. All this thinking can't be healthy for one person. HAHAHA, I just read this somewhere. Avoidance brings a cure. Hmm..
Can you believe I did four chapters of sej and read science chapters 1-5 yesterday? SERIOUSLY. I am AMAZED at myself. I did this in three hours flat! Morning, I Mapled, then I slept in the afternoon, then watched A LOT of tv, then read and WAAASSSTEDDD more time :P.
Planning to go watch Insidious this Sunday. Hope everyone can make it. With Kas and gang, I think we'll go out sometime next week. Not sure who to call though :/
INSIDIOUS
1. Working or spreading harmfully in a subtle or stealthy manner: insidious rumors; an insidious disease.
2. Intended to entrap; treacherous: insidious misinformation.
3. Beguiling but harmful; alluring: insidious pleasures.
Insidious pleasures eh? Sounds tasty ;) The trailer is freaking scary. But its probably gonna be like some typical boy-being-haunted-in-new-house movie.
xoxoxo
Rire. Sourire. :) Je m'en fiche.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Apocalyptic.
I finished that post. :) It's done. :D Im glad. It's all out in the open. I'm just thinking about hitting delete though but i won't. So that everytime I forget, I'll read it and I remember. :)
Two weeks. Supposed to enjoy it right?:D
Signs of recessiveness. :S. Closed.
WTF? Whatever:(
Je suis fou.
Disparu.
Merd.
M+T?
:(
Two weeks. Supposed to enjoy it right?:D
Signs of recessiveness. :S. Closed.
WTF? Whatever:(
Je suis fou.
Disparu.
Merd.
M+T?
:(
Time heals all wounds
My insides are screaming,have been screaming since last night and they haven't stopped. I don't know. I really don't. Jeeez, what a shock to find out Abi felt that way huh. She feels the exact same way I do. Just that she's gonna do something about it. Cool. But not quite. There's so many things to think about. If sheee....yeah. Then....what about us? That's one. And then there's a million other things I wanna tell her. Or at least, ASK her. But...I don't wanna obliterate every single good feeling she has about me right now. So, I'll shut up.
Two, my freaky ass dreams :'(. I've dreamt about Pn. Many, Pn.Thana, Carmen, ABI!, SANGEETA(this one would be the worst). Then this morning, DHEEPA AND APPA. Note that this two people have something very recent in common. THese dreams are all so scary. Its all things that haven't happened. Could be coming in the near future maybe so these dreams are a warning? It could be things they're thinking of saying, doing and yeah. Or it could be a warning for me to change my act before any of the above happens. ORRR...maybe I'm just being bloody superstitious. Maybe its all JUST a dream. Wanna hear a few?
a) Pn Thana, got scolded by her for not wearing something.
b) Pn.Many, she was advising me. I remember what she said too :'( But it had soemthing to do with being a good person and doing what's needed to be done. Along those liness....
c) Carmen...haih. A dream about some stuff you wrote on your blog. And LAST NIGHT. I dreamt about having your blog pass. But mostly, its about the number of things you've kept secret, things you SHOULDNT have. And then, yeah, you said it all on your blog in my dream. And then after I 'read' it in my dream, I blew up. I mean, in my dream, I said things I never knew I felt. But it all comes down to ONE fact.
T'ES QUI LA? :S
d) Abii...whoa. Yours was...bad. It was aboouutt...hmm. Okay, I can't say yours out loud. But I woke up wanting to cry :'(
e) Sangeeetaaaa! Dreams about you weren't ONE. There were MANY. And all around the saaaame thing. Let's put it this way. There's a bottle of kerosene. A little girl keeps throwing lit matches into it. EVERYTIME the matches get doused out. But there will come a time when the kerosene will catch on fire and the bottle will explode. In my dream, you're the bottle of kerosene and I'm the little girl. Each match I throw is another scar to you. In my dream, the bottle exploded. :S Wasn't a pretty sight. You said things A LOOOT of things. What scares me is, if this is just my dreams, and my subconscious speaking, then, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT TO SAY TO ME.
f) The ones about Dheepa and Appa. Haih. Appa kept repeating 'get out while the glue is wet' over and over and over again. I kept screaming, you don't freaking understand but they wouldn't listen. And Dheepa, she told me stuff. Lots of stuff. Scary stuff. And she kept repeating them over and over and over again. They were like trying to get it to register in my head and even in my dreams it doesnt :P. It was like limbo, it didn't stop till I got up after seeing the ghost from Insidious behind appa. :P
"Lies are ghosts of the past that ALWAYS find a way to haunt you." -myself-
"Dreams are more real than reality itself, they're closer to the self."
GAO XINGJIAN, Dialogue and Rebuttal
"Dreams are the seedlings of reality."
NAPOLEON HILL, Think and Grow Rich
"A dream is a wish your heart makes."
WALT DISNEY, Sleeping Beauty
"Dreams are symbolic in order that they cannot be understood; in order that the wish, which is the source of the dream, may remain unknown."
CARL JUNG, Psychology of the Unconscious
"In dreams no man wears a mask."
EDWARD COUNSEL, Maxims
Okay, so based on the quotes above, I can conclude that there's an inkling of truth in my dreams(a bucketful of truth more like it) but they're all my take on whatever happened. But in those dreams,the people I dream of are completely free of judgement so they're not acting in my dreams as I think they SHOULD act or WOULD act, but how they REALLY, WOULD act. Lastly, I harbour some secret wish behind ALL these dreams that I will never find out and shouldn't even TRY to because my dreams are designed to disguise them.
God, seriously, WHAT THE HELL? I feel like laughing at myself. And I am. Oh well. My dreams are freaky. If they have any significance at all as to my real life, Mr Edward Counsel says I ain't never gonna find it, so why think about it right? God, you're taking me on one helluva joyride you know. I thought it ended already but looks like I haven't quite reached the end of this chapter yet rite. But whatever it is, I love my life God. Don't mess it up too bad please.
Two, my freaky ass dreams :'(. I've dreamt about Pn. Many, Pn.Thana, Carmen, ABI!, SANGEETA(this one would be the worst). Then this morning, DHEEPA AND APPA. Note that this two people have something very recent in common. THese dreams are all so scary. Its all things that haven't happened. Could be coming in the near future maybe so these dreams are a warning? It could be things they're thinking of saying, doing and yeah. Or it could be a warning for me to change my act before any of the above happens. ORRR...maybe I'm just being bloody superstitious. Maybe its all JUST a dream. Wanna hear a few?
a) Pn Thana, got scolded by her for not wearing something.
b) Pn.Many, she was advising me. I remember what she said too :'( But it had soemthing to do with being a good person and doing what's needed to be done. Along those liness....
c) Carmen...haih. A dream about some stuff you wrote on your blog. And LAST NIGHT. I dreamt about having your blog pass. But mostly, its about the number of things you've kept secret, things you SHOULDNT have. And then, yeah, you said it all on your blog in my dream. And then after I 'read' it in my dream, I blew up. I mean, in my dream, I said things I never knew I felt. But it all comes down to ONE fact.
T'ES QUI LA? :S
d) Abii...whoa. Yours was...bad. It was aboouutt...hmm. Okay, I can't say yours out loud. But I woke up wanting to cry :'(
e) Sangeeetaaaa! Dreams about you weren't ONE. There were MANY. And all around the saaaame thing. Let's put it this way. There's a bottle of kerosene. A little girl keeps throwing lit matches into it. EVERYTIME the matches get doused out. But there will come a time when the kerosene will catch on fire and the bottle will explode. In my dream, you're the bottle of kerosene and I'm the little girl. Each match I throw is another scar to you. In my dream, the bottle exploded. :S Wasn't a pretty sight. You said things A LOOOT of things. What scares me is, if this is just my dreams, and my subconscious speaking, then, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT TO SAY TO ME.
f) The ones about Dheepa and Appa. Haih. Appa kept repeating 'get out while the glue is wet' over and over and over again. I kept screaming, you don't freaking understand but they wouldn't listen. And Dheepa, she told me stuff. Lots of stuff. Scary stuff. And she kept repeating them over and over and over again. They were like trying to get it to register in my head and even in my dreams it doesnt :P. It was like limbo, it didn't stop till I got up after seeing the ghost from Insidious behind appa. :P
"Lies are ghosts of the past that ALWAYS find a way to haunt you." -myself-
"Dreams are more real than reality itself, they're closer to the self."
GAO XINGJIAN, Dialogue and Rebuttal
"Dreams are the seedlings of reality."
NAPOLEON HILL, Think and Grow Rich
"A dream is a wish your heart makes."
WALT DISNEY, Sleeping Beauty
"Dreams are symbolic in order that they cannot be understood; in order that the wish, which is the source of the dream, may remain unknown."
CARL JUNG, Psychology of the Unconscious
"In dreams no man wears a mask."
EDWARD COUNSEL, Maxims
Okay, so based on the quotes above, I can conclude that there's an inkling of truth in my dreams(a bucketful of truth more like it) but they're all my take on whatever happened. But in those dreams,the people I dream of are completely free of judgement so they're not acting in my dreams as I think they SHOULD act or WOULD act, but how they REALLY, WOULD act. Lastly, I harbour some secret wish behind ALL these dreams that I will never find out and shouldn't even TRY to because my dreams are designed to disguise them.
God, seriously, WHAT THE HELL? I feel like laughing at myself. And I am. Oh well. My dreams are freaky. If they have any significance at all as to my real life, Mr Edward Counsel says I ain't never gonna find it, so why think about it right? God, you're taking me on one helluva joyride you know. I thought it ended already but looks like I haven't quite reached the end of this chapter yet rite. But whatever it is, I love my life God. Don't mess it up too bad please.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Les vacances
I should be at the debate right now. Overslept -.- Dammit.
Its the holidaaaayysss. And Iman would be proud of me cos I AM pretty excited. :P It's gonna be....somewhere in between la.
Reasons why my holiday should suck:
1) Appa isn't going to buy me kredit. (Even if I beg and cry)
2) Amma is FORCING me to study these whooolleee holidays.
3) Banned from going online.
4) Banned from Mapling.
5) Can't see Abi, Sangeeta or Carmen. OR anyone else.
Reasons why my holidays WONT suck:
1) We're going somewheree...and I'm PRAYING its Redang.
2) Vamp diaries season two FULLY DOWNLOADED.
3) Whole bunch of Cd's I haven't watched.
4) Gonna go out.
5) Sanjeeee all here.
6) Can come online eaaarly in the morning using Vicky akka's laptop so mummy won't know :P
7) Can go padang on my own, see Leni, Verny and Deepa.
8) Debate on some days, boredom shall disappear.
9) SHOPPING! xD Got $$$ to get new shoes new everything.
10) ................... Gugu's house, GC's house, Leena and Theivina's house.
11) FOOTBALLLLLL! :D
I know it doesn't sound like much but its enough to keep me happy for two weeks :).
Abi's going to London. So lucky rite! I am so jealous btw :P I would give anything to go back there again la. I know she's gonna have an awesome time even though she's complaining and giving me that pathetic reason for not going :P. You're gonna have so many stories to tell once you get back. Sad part is, the girl's coming back the night before school reopens. What with the jet lag and all she's not gonna come two school on monday and probably Tuesday too :(. Not only does she have an awesome holiday but she gets to skip school too :( HAIH. Will miss you. And if you think Im gonna stay up till four in the morning and hope and pray you come online....see la.
Haih. Happy holidays everyone. See you after two weeks.
OFFICIALLY FALLING OFFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH ON MONDAY 00:00 a.m. Signing off.
Its the holidaaaayysss. And Iman would be proud of me cos I AM pretty excited. :P It's gonna be....somewhere in between la.
Reasons why my holiday should suck:
1) Appa isn't going to buy me kredit. (Even if I beg and cry)
2) Amma is FORCING me to study these whooolleee holidays.
3) Banned from going online.
4) Banned from Mapling.
5) Can't see Abi, Sangeeta or Carmen. OR anyone else.
Reasons why my holidays WONT suck:
1) We're going somewheree...and I'm PRAYING its Redang.
2) Vamp diaries season two FULLY DOWNLOADED.
3) Whole bunch of Cd's I haven't watched.
4) Gonna go out.
5) Sanjeeee all here.
6) Can come online eaaarly in the morning using Vicky akka's laptop so mummy won't know :P
7) Can go padang on my own, see Leni, Verny and Deepa.
8) Debate on some days, boredom shall disappear.
9) SHOPPING! xD Got $$$ to get new shoes new everything.
10) ................... Gugu's house, GC's house, Leena and Theivina's house.
11) FOOTBALLLLLL! :D
I know it doesn't sound like much but its enough to keep me happy for two weeks :).
Abi's going to London. So lucky rite! I am so jealous btw :P I would give anything to go back there again la. I know she's gonna have an awesome time even though she's complaining and giving me that pathetic reason for not going :P. You're gonna have so many stories to tell once you get back. Sad part is, the girl's coming back the night before school reopens. What with the jet lag and all she's not gonna come two school on monday and probably Tuesday too :(. Not only does she have an awesome holiday but she gets to skip school too :( HAIH. Will miss you. And if you think Im gonna stay up till four in the morning and hope and pray you come online....see la.
Haih. Happy holidays everyone. See you after two weeks.
OFFICIALLY FALLING OFFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH ON MONDAY 00:00 a.m. Signing off.
Would you cry if you saw me crying?
LOVE THIS <3
Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?
Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight
YOU CAN TAKE MY BREATH AWAY.
This song makes me get goosebumps.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Morte.
Morte. Casser. Manquer. Detruire. Froid. Triste. Aller. Disparu. Perdu. Punition. Doleur. Impossible de penser ne peut pas dormir ne peut pas manger ne peut rien faire. Etre un coup de foudre mais maintenant, seulement le foudre. Je veux mourir.
Ce que plus difficile que de coucher avec un cœur brisé se réveille avec un.
Twilight.
Morte.
Ce que plus difficile que de coucher avec un cœur brisé se réveille avec un.
Twilight.
Morte.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Let Me Unhurt The Pain
For some reason....I can't get that line outta my head. Wanna know why...? ;)
My poor Ballack was hurt so bad today. Oi Shan, take care of Ballack means take care properly le... -.- EEEESH.
Just came home from temple. Was there for a whole five hours. Unbelievable, no? Then I saw all those people. Its funny how all these kids were the ones I grew up with, exchanging stories from school, talking about tv shows, playing catch, hide and seek (yes, in the temple) and then now that we're all much older, we don't know each other anymore. It's pretty sad actually. Oh well. Life goes on right?
I sat for Thevaram today. Saw teacher and sirrr :D After like 9 years of seeing em' I STILL don't know their names. It was cool la. Wish I could do it more often.
What elseee? Sejarah was so hard :'( I saw all my dreams of a new phone and sneakers going up in smoke... There goesss....
So many other things that are going up in smoke. Oh well. I was goooonnnaa say some more stuff but I really am too lazy to type it out. So ciao till tom. If I feel liek it, I'll write it out.
Guten nicht. :)
My poor Ballack was hurt so bad today. Oi Shan, take care of Ballack means take care properly le... -.- EEEESH.
Just came home from temple. Was there for a whole five hours. Unbelievable, no? Then I saw all those people. Its funny how all these kids were the ones I grew up with, exchanging stories from school, talking about tv shows, playing catch, hide and seek (yes, in the temple) and then now that we're all much older, we don't know each other anymore. It's pretty sad actually. Oh well. Life goes on right?
I sat for Thevaram today. Saw teacher and sirrr :D After like 9 years of seeing em' I STILL don't know their names. It was cool la. Wish I could do it more often.
What elseee? Sejarah was so hard :'( I saw all my dreams of a new phone and sneakers going up in smoke... There goesss....
So many other things that are going up in smoke. Oh well. I was goooonnnaa say some more stuff but I really am too lazy to type it out. So ciao till tom. If I feel liek it, I'll write it out.
Guten nicht. :)
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Merda
Damon's word :P I like it.
Exaaaams today. Biasa lah. Bm was ok. Geo....I wanted to rip the goddamn paper apart. -.- It was so annoying! 60 pathetic questions. I found the paper easier than mid-term but its probably cos I just THINK my answers are rite. Oh, well. Who cares? But OMG, Geography paper, towards the end of the exam, I realised I forgot to put my textbook outside. It was on the table right behind mee.. Thank God Pn.Lau didnt notice. Its not like I copied or anything, I am NO CHEAT.
I'm just dreaming about the hols. For some reason, that short nap during penulisan, or was it pemahaman, made me think I was in Holland. No prizes for guessing how annoyed I was when I got up.
Sangeeta. Should've known things weren't gonna last right. I thought you were ACTUALLY okay. Then there was the nagging suspiscion when I walked into class today that you weren't okay, and you just proved it. Fineeee be weird. Im just glad its exams. Won't be so hard to ignore then. I hate you for making me do this btw. I wanna scream at you. But most of all, I wanna cry. And then, it happens all over again. So this time, Im not gonna waste my time and yours. I will hide it. Extremely well. But if you ASK me about WALLS. I will choookee you. no joke.
Oh and THANK YOU ABI for ignoring me today when you knew I was fine. -.- Tsktsk. i couldn't even give you the leaf! HAIH. Waaaalllaaaaaoo. I know laaa..this morning was freaky. Proabbly cos I didnt know what to say to you after you just ACCUSED me of being weird when I was all right :P I know you'd argue. But I dunno la you. Why were you ignoring me today? O.o I kept tryna catch your eye but you would'nt look. -.- And I AM NOT weird. Least I wasnt today and I know it. But if you still think I was....then. I dunno. Really dunno. If we're like this again tommorow, Imma throw myself off a cliff. Seriously :'(
POTC IS OUT BABEYH. OOUUUUUTTT! HAHHAHAHAHAHHA. CANT WAIT TO GO WATCH JACK SPAAAROOOWWW! :P I know, that after watching it, for the next couple of months, Imma act exactly iek Jack Sparrow. S'always an after effect of watching POTC.
I dunno how Im still happy on the inside. It must be thiss...MONTH. Its just keeping me in such high spirits :D Good for me la. But...I can't avoid this. A person can only try 99999999999999 times,huh? :P But to tell you the truth, which I would tell you if I knew Carmen wasn't reading my blog, I just wanna sit and stare at a wall. No, actually, just shut up. Like completely close off. Dunno whyyy....
But I could never do that. Because as much as I want silence, I want parties, shouts, laughter, screams, MORE LAUGHTER and FUN and smiles and happiness and everything else thats been dried up for a little while too. I'm exaggerating, dont worry :P
Freedom is on its way in TWO WEEKS BABEYH! No phone, no nothing. Just books, STUDYING BOOKS(regrettably :'( ) and the seaaaa. And my mind. And my imagination. And everyting else that's as cool. :P
HAHA. Dragonfruit, seriousleeeh? Sadistic man. -.- Leave the girl alooonnee la.
ARRIVERDERCI. <3
Exaaaams today. Biasa lah. Bm was ok. Geo....I wanted to rip the goddamn paper apart. -.- It was so annoying! 60 pathetic questions. I found the paper easier than mid-term but its probably cos I just THINK my answers are rite. Oh, well. Who cares? But OMG, Geography paper, towards the end of the exam, I realised I forgot to put my textbook outside. It was on the table right behind mee.. Thank God Pn.Lau didnt notice. Its not like I copied or anything, I am NO CHEAT.
I'm just dreaming about the hols. For some reason, that short nap during penulisan, or was it pemahaman, made me think I was in Holland. No prizes for guessing how annoyed I was when I got up.
Sangeeta. Should've known things weren't gonna last right. I thought you were ACTUALLY okay. Then there was the nagging suspiscion when I walked into class today that you weren't okay, and you just proved it. Fineeee be weird. Im just glad its exams. Won't be so hard to ignore then. I hate you for making me do this btw. I wanna scream at you. But most of all, I wanna cry. And then, it happens all over again. So this time, Im not gonna waste my time and yours. I will hide it. Extremely well. But if you ASK me about WALLS. I will choookee you. no joke.
Oh and THANK YOU ABI for ignoring me today when you knew I was fine. -.- Tsktsk. i couldn't even give you the leaf! HAIH. Waaaalllaaaaaoo. I know laaa..this morning was freaky. Proabbly cos I didnt know what to say to you after you just ACCUSED me of being weird when I was all right :P I know you'd argue. But I dunno la you. Why were you ignoring me today? O.o I kept tryna catch your eye but you would'nt look. -.- And I AM NOT weird. Least I wasnt today and I know it. But if you still think I was....then. I dunno. Really dunno. If we're like this again tommorow, Imma throw myself off a cliff. Seriously :'(
POTC IS OUT BABEYH. OOUUUUUTTT! HAHHAHAHAHAHHA. CANT WAIT TO GO WATCH JACK SPAAAROOOWWW! :P I know, that after watching it, for the next couple of months, Imma act exactly iek Jack Sparrow. S'always an after effect of watching POTC.
I dunno how Im still happy on the inside. It must be thiss...MONTH. Its just keeping me in such high spirits :D Good for me la. But...I can't avoid this. A person can only try 99999999999999 times,huh? :P But to tell you the truth, which I would tell you if I knew Carmen wasn't reading my blog, I just wanna sit and stare at a wall. No, actually, just shut up. Like completely close off. Dunno whyyy....
But I could never do that. Because as much as I want silence, I want parties, shouts, laughter, screams, MORE LAUGHTER and FUN and smiles and happiness and everything else thats been dried up for a little while too. I'm exaggerating, dont worry :P
Freedom is on its way in TWO WEEKS BABEYH! No phone, no nothing. Just books, STUDYING BOOKS(regrettably :'( ) and the seaaaa. And my mind. And my imagination. And everyting else that's as cool. :P
HAHA. Dragonfruit, seriousleeeh? Sadistic man. -.- Leave the girl alooonnee la.
ARRIVERDERCI. <3
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Veni,Vidi,Vici
Traslation: I came, I saw and I CONQURED
My life is on a ROLL BABEYH! I worte this 10 minutes ago. Should have known it wasn't gonna last. But anyway, before I get into THAAAT. Lemme tell you about today. I feel so....full. There's just so much going on. But its nothing i CANT HANDLE. I cant exactly descibe how I feel but i jsut feel soo...happy. At least I FELT that way. Its...everyone thats making me wanna scream run shout and jump. First, Sangeeta. You were ACTUALLY cool today. LIEK SERIOUSLY. I was waiting for you to turn around and be all.....liek THAT. But you weren't. And it jsut makes me so UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY to see you that way. THEN, the other thing thats happening that freaking you out. Its making me laauuuggghhh. Like seriously. IT IS A YEAR TOO LATE FOR ANYTHING. REMEMBER THAT. But if it seems other wise, its just cos I wanna irritate you and get you all scared and worked up. Cranberries HAHAHAHAHA.
Then...this Nishaaa...and whoever else, they're all making me laugh la.Its hilarious. And stupid. The fact that I can laugh about it without worrying is already a good thing. Means Im back.
And then there's youuu. You said you'll tell me after the holidays...but why not now? Haih, Carmen carmen. Dont laaaaa. Tell me can or not. At least this way, when you're weird, I knwo whats wronnnnggg. -.- And whatever it is, I am SORRY. Seriously. I never would do anything to hurt you intentionally so Im sorry alrite? :(
What else?
Hmmm...Abi. ABI ABI ABI. WHY LA? Im nto weirrrddd. Im not trying to be weird. im nto doign anything. Seriously. Everything is extremely cool and fine with me. if i was weird today, or distant maybe, it might've had somehting to do with what shan saaaaidd...I'll tell you tom. But anyway, stop telling me to go awaaaaaaaay. I am soooorrrryy. It wont happen again okay? Just be alright.
But other than that, life is kick-ass. :D
My life is on a ROLL BABEYH! I worte this 10 minutes ago. Should have known it wasn't gonna last. But anyway, before I get into THAAAT. Lemme tell you about today. I feel so....full. There's just so much going on. But its nothing i CANT HANDLE. I cant exactly descibe how I feel but i jsut feel soo...happy. At least I FELT that way. Its...everyone thats making me wanna scream run shout and jump. First, Sangeeta. You were ACTUALLY cool today. LIEK SERIOUSLY. I was waiting for you to turn around and be all.....liek THAT. But you weren't. And it jsut makes me so UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY to see you that way. THEN, the other thing thats happening that freaking you out. Its making me laauuuggghhh. Like seriously. IT IS A YEAR TOO LATE FOR ANYTHING. REMEMBER THAT. But if it seems other wise, its just cos I wanna irritate you and get you all scared and worked up. Cranberries HAHAHAHAHA.
Then...this Nishaaa...and whoever else, they're all making me laugh la.Its hilarious. And stupid. The fact that I can laugh about it without worrying is already a good thing. Means Im back.
And then there's youuu. You said you'll tell me after the holidays...but why not now? Haih, Carmen carmen. Dont laaaaa. Tell me can or not. At least this way, when you're weird, I knwo whats wronnnnggg. -.- And whatever it is, I am SORRY. Seriously. I never would do anything to hurt you intentionally so Im sorry alrite? :(
What else?
Hmmm...Abi. ABI ABI ABI. WHY LA? Im nto weirrrddd. Im not trying to be weird. im nto doign anything. Seriously. Everything is extremely cool and fine with me. if i was weird today, or distant maybe, it might've had somehting to do with what shan saaaaidd...I'll tell you tom. But anyway, stop telling me to go awaaaaaaaay. I am soooorrrryy. It wont happen again okay? Just be alright.
But other than that, life is kick-ass. :D
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Not your typical Saturday
Amma took us all to the temple last night... Dayumn it felt good. It felt like I was unloading eveything and giving it away... I feel so light now...like a feather. HAHA.
This morning, got up at like 7 and got ready to go for this Tony Buzan talk in UM. Yes guys, I met Tony Buzan. Mensa editor(do you have any idea how smart you have to be to get into MENSA??), inventor of the MindMap, man with the highest IQ in the world and host of the World Memory Championships. He seemed liek a pretty down-to-earth dude. Normal, ordinary but the way he spoke to the crowd. He had this way of drawing attention to himself, the way he spoke was captivating and he sounded like a man who knew exactly what he was talking about. His clothes, were all so obviously tailored. Like he had this coat on that fitted him, and he had that look...rich. :P Inspiring ain't it?
Anyway, He gave a talk on how to tap into your brain's potential using mindmaps and how to became smarter generally. It was pretty cool. He was saying that children learn the fastest obviously adn they memorise the fastest too becuase when they're babies for example, they just stare, observe, watch and learn. As they grow up, they get told to stop staring because its rude, stop watching, stop touching...meaning adults are indirectly telling them to stop learning. So, their memory power declines along with thier intrest. Then when their fifteen, they get screwed for being 'stupid'. It was cool la. He had loads of examples like that...real enlightening.
Another story he told us was about the guy who won the World Memory Championships last year. Before he told us this story, he made us memorise a series of numbers, starting of with two, fur, five, seven then ten, He stopped at 10 because no one could memorise it. Well anyway, the memory champion was a 49 year old man form China. Apparently, he memorised a series of 202 numbers perfectly. He won, obviously. And 10 hours later, after celebrations, lots of champagne...a few jealous competitors told him sarcastically, "BEt he doesn't remember those numbers now". To their surprise, he did. He recited the 202 digit number perfectly. He hesitated at first, but after the first ten numbers, he said the rest with confidence. One he was done, he asked the competitors if they would like him to recite the numbers backward...and he did. Like WOW rite.
A lady asked him how did the guy memorise 202 numbers and Mr.Tony said that there was a certain way. Like each number is associated with a letter and yeah...basically. The brain is trained to work that way.
Awesome huh? Maybe I'll be a genius like that someday.. :P
Happy thoughts aside. I went for French today...as usual. Me and Leila had the most hilarious conversation on cartoon charecters and Leila's obsession with clicking on radom ads online. HAHA. Well anyway, during break, I asked Farita where Flo was...and she said he quit and went back to France.
This morning, got up at like 7 and got ready to go for this Tony Buzan talk in UM. Yes guys, I met Tony Buzan. Mensa editor(do you have any idea how smart you have to be to get into MENSA??), inventor of the MindMap, man with the highest IQ in the world and host of the World Memory Championships. He seemed liek a pretty down-to-earth dude. Normal, ordinary but the way he spoke to the crowd. He had this way of drawing attention to himself, the way he spoke was captivating and he sounded like a man who knew exactly what he was talking about. His clothes, were all so obviously tailored. Like he had this coat on that fitted him, and he had that look...rich. :P Inspiring ain't it?
Anyway, He gave a talk on how to tap into your brain's potential using mindmaps and how to became smarter generally. It was pretty cool. He was saying that children learn the fastest obviously adn they memorise the fastest too becuase when they're babies for example, they just stare, observe, watch and learn. As they grow up, they get told to stop staring because its rude, stop watching, stop touching...meaning adults are indirectly telling them to stop learning. So, their memory power declines along with thier intrest. Then when their fifteen, they get screwed for being 'stupid'. It was cool la. He had loads of examples like that...real enlightening.
Another story he told us was about the guy who won the World Memory Championships last year. Before he told us this story, he made us memorise a series of numbers, starting of with two, fur, five, seven then ten, He stopped at 10 because no one could memorise it. Well anyway, the memory champion was a 49 year old man form China. Apparently, he memorised a series of 202 numbers perfectly. He won, obviously. And 10 hours later, after celebrations, lots of champagne...a few jealous competitors told him sarcastically, "BEt he doesn't remember those numbers now". To their surprise, he did. He recited the 202 digit number perfectly. He hesitated at first, but after the first ten numbers, he said the rest with confidence. One he was done, he asked the competitors if they would like him to recite the numbers backward...and he did. Like WOW rite.
A lady asked him how did the guy memorise 202 numbers and Mr.Tony said that there was a certain way. Like each number is associated with a letter and yeah...basically. The brain is trained to work that way.
Awesome huh? Maybe I'll be a genius like that someday.. :P
Happy thoughts aside. I went for French today...as usual. Me and Leila had the most hilarious conversation on cartoon charecters and Leila's obsession with clicking on radom ads online. HAHA. Well anyway, during break, I asked Farita where Flo was...and she said he quit and went back to France.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
The Truth
There are those moments when you feel the weight of the World on your shoulders. When nothing seems to go right, when you have so many things to figure out and you just don't know what to do. At those times, you wish so much that there was some one who could help you. Who knows what you're going through and if not give you a solution, to help you put things in perspective. That's when you turn to God. You believe in the existence of some power out there to help you sort things out or else you're screwed. But then...God never does give you a straight answer does he? You can wait and wait and wait but the answer isn't just going to throw itself at you. Frustrating isn't it?
So todayy...I was sitting in the car on the way to Genting Highlands...just watching the mountains pass by.. And I was thinking....and thinking...and thinking....I think mountain air does that to you... Well anyway, where was I? So yeah, I was thinking...and you know how the voices in your head get so loud sometimes that you just forget to listen to what matter's right? For me, whenever I think about a certain problem or something, its either a song starts playing in my head that holds the answer to what I'm thinking about or it helps me figure out what I'm feeling. Anyway this time, I think God must've realised there was no way in hell I was gonna listen to the more important voices in my head so he played THAT song on the radio. It was only when Dheepa started singing it out loud that I realised what she was singing about.
My life is like a game of chess. I am my own opponent. On either side, I'm waiting to checkmate but on which side should I make my move?? Eitherway the outcome is the same, I still lose.
Honestly, I hate thinking everything so thoroughly. I never could make decisions, and I still can't.
Take a chance,Make a Wish, And Breakaway. :P (See, that's from another song)
Will I take that chance?
Blog post donnneeeeeee :)) Here's an absolute masterpiece by Kris Allen(ILY<3)
So todayy...I was sitting in the car on the way to Genting Highlands...just watching the mountains pass by.. And I was thinking....and thinking...and thinking....I think mountain air does that to you... Well anyway, where was I? So yeah, I was thinking...and you know how the voices in your head get so loud sometimes that you just forget to listen to what matter's right? For me, whenever I think about a certain problem or something, its either a song starts playing in my head that holds the answer to what I'm thinking about or it helps me figure out what I'm feeling. Anyway this time, I think God must've realised there was no way in hell I was gonna listen to the more important voices in my head so he played THAT song on the radio. It was only when Dheepa started singing it out loud that I realised what she was singing about.
My life is like a game of chess. I am my own opponent. On either side, I'm waiting to checkmate but on which side should I make my move?? Eitherway the outcome is the same, I still lose.
Honestly, I hate thinking everything so thoroughly. I never could make decisions, and I still can't.
Take a chance,Make a Wish, And Breakaway. :P (See, that's from another song)
Will I take that chance?
Blog post donnneeeeeee :)) Here's an absolute masterpiece by Kris Allen(ILY<3)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Honesty
We learn it in kindergarten. We were punished by our parents the minute we broke it.
RULE NUMERO UNO #1 NEVER EVER EVER lie.
We're supposed to tell the truth no matter what. I broke that rule a million times over. And I'm paying for it now. One part of me is relieved you finally know, now there is nothing I'm hiding. But the other part...knows the gravity of this lieee....
I only did it to prevent this. Whtever's happening now. At that time it was the best thing we could do... Now, it seems stupid. I do know why I lied. Because it seemed like the best thing to do. Why I acted? To make sure you didn't get hurt. You keep talking about her losing hope...I didn't want you to lose hope either. But you did, a long time ago. And I know this will probably extinguish every chance you thought was left. I am blind. I see what I want to see. But argh, this won't happen again. I'm afraid to ask you for a chance to make it all better because I don't want to dissapoint you again. I wouldn't be able to live through hearing you cry and saying "You lied" over and over again to me. It kills me to know that you're the one that's suffering because of my mistakes. I do care. I DO I DO I DO. I'm afraid to tell you that now because I wouldn't be able to bear it if you told me you didn't believe me. :(
I want to tell you I'm sorry I'm sorry I AM SO SO SO SORRY. Don't tell me this is coming too late. :'( Can we try fixing this? No more lies. No more empty promises. Don't tell me you've given up or lost hope...because that's the only thing we have left. I know I fucked up big time. But I want to make things better. I want to make it okay for you at least.
I AM SO SORRY. :'(
RULE NUMERO UNO #1 NEVER EVER EVER lie.
We're supposed to tell the truth no matter what. I broke that rule a million times over. And I'm paying for it now. One part of me is relieved you finally know, now there is nothing I'm hiding. But the other part...knows the gravity of this lieee....
I only did it to prevent this. Whtever's happening now. At that time it was the best thing we could do... Now, it seems stupid. I do know why I lied. Because it seemed like the best thing to do. Why I acted? To make sure you didn't get hurt. You keep talking about her losing hope...I didn't want you to lose hope either. But you did, a long time ago. And I know this will probably extinguish every chance you thought was left. I am blind. I see what I want to see. But argh, this won't happen again. I'm afraid to ask you for a chance to make it all better because I don't want to dissapoint you again. I wouldn't be able to live through hearing you cry and saying "You lied" over and over again to me. It kills me to know that you're the one that's suffering because of my mistakes. I do care. I DO I DO I DO. I'm afraid to tell you that now because I wouldn't be able to bear it if you told me you didn't believe me. :(
I want to tell you I'm sorry I'm sorry I AM SO SO SO SORRY. Don't tell me this is coming too late. :'( Can we try fixing this? No more lies. No more empty promises. Don't tell me you've given up or lost hope...because that's the only thing we have left. I know I fucked up big time. But I want to make things better. I want to make it okay for you at least.
I AM SO SORRY. :'(
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Strange sense of importance
December 08-Camp with Charmaine :) From the side...whazzisname,Rebekah,Charmaine,Dheepa and me. Wei Jin's taking the photo.
Me and Haas. :) Assunta 2 Carnival last year.
Christmas tree decorating. All of us :)
The excitement a child gets from decorating a Christmas tree.
Dheepa put up the angel this year. Next year, MY TURN.
All of us<3
Me and Aheraj at Brickfields during Deepavali. Teman patti shopping. This boy here helped me pick out fake eyelashes :P
Covent Garden, Italian Restaurant, bathroom :P
The classroom me, Amma and Vicky akka spent the whole of New Year's Eve decorating :D
The picture I owe you, Haas.
Sunway Pyramid Ferris Wheel :P
Shavithashree and GC.
Chinese food! YUM! :D
Last night at the restaurant. WE WERE RAVENOUS! :D
Hell hath no fury like mine
Made a new friend today :) Leila :) She seems really cool although she's a year younger than me. She's really pretty, the result of all Asian and Western blood mixes. Finally won't be so bored in French class anymore. She asked me if i have Tumblr and i was like nuh uh...I told her to get an fb acc. She goes to international school and we love PLL :P She hates Edward, kinda likes Daughtry, is a Beatles fan and yeah. This was the one class this term that was actually funn. Sad part, I think Nadesh is back... Flo wasnt there last week and he isnt this week either..
Exams are finally overr! Amma has this idea that I did really badly for exams and sh's just waiting for my results to come out so she can take my phone away and put me under 24-hour watch. Military home school. -.- HAHA. But I dont think I did so badly...it was all oh-kaaayyy i guess except for geo. Never should've studied it a week before, should've known it wouldnt stick in my brain. Last minute all the wayy yaaaw.
What elseee....?
Bet you're just waiting for me to get started on what's wrong right? Well sorry love, you're just gonna have to wait a little longer....
Where was I....? YEAH. Holidays! :D I'm staring at the digi reload in my hand wondering if i should key in the number... And i decided I won't. It's holidays. Not gonna take no phone calls, not gonna text. Youu areee the onllyy excepptiooonnn :P . Hmm imma live with me, myself and I. :D Imma play the guitarrr,pianoo....read! Go shopping :P Blooogggg.... And maybe, just maybe go to Genting or Ipoh. PD was an option but not anymore cos of all the tsunami's happening. And this holidays! YES, I am going to do it.....JUGGLE ! :D
This'll be me by the end of the week :P
HAHA, then I'll have to go to school...Pn Eli's centreee... YEAPP. A good holiday :)
Next, the tsunami that hit Japan :( DEVESTATION. It's amazing how an element usually signifying calmness and tranquility can tear down a country huh. If i thought having to start over again in Canada would be sucky, then imagine how bad these people have it. They're homes...gone. Teared down. Their lives...brought to a standstill and when they do get past this, there's always a possibiliy that they might have to go through it all over again. Aside those people who just lost their belongings, what about those who lost their loved ones..? Imagien thier pain. To the people in Japan who are affected, have faith. It'll be okay in the end.
Never understimate the power of the sea :)If i had an affinity with one element, I'd say water. Unbelievably calm, a necessity....unpredictable....but above all, hell hath no fury like a tsunami.
And now...moving on to more...pressing matters.
Read this today... "The secret to a succesful relationship is simple.Treat all disasters as if they were trivialities but never treat trivialities as disasters." In other words, don't let a storm in a teacup rule your life. -.-
Haih...just typed out this whole long text... And deleted it. Whateverlah.
I am happy :)Just like you wanted me to be.
Exams are finally overr! Amma has this idea that I did really badly for exams and sh's just waiting for my results to come out so she can take my phone away and put me under 24-hour watch. Military home school. -.- HAHA. But I dont think I did so badly...it was all oh-kaaayyy i guess except for geo. Never should've studied it a week before, should've known it wouldnt stick in my brain. Last minute all the wayy yaaaw.
What elseee....?
Bet you're just waiting for me to get started on what's wrong right? Well sorry love, you're just gonna have to wait a little longer....
Where was I....? YEAH. Holidays! :D I'm staring at the digi reload in my hand wondering if i should key in the number... And i decided I won't. It's holidays. Not gonna take no phone calls, not gonna text. Youu areee the onllyy excepptiooonnn :P . Hmm imma live with me, myself and I. :D Imma play the guitarrr,pianoo....read! Go shopping :P Blooogggg.... And maybe, just maybe go to Genting or Ipoh. PD was an option but not anymore cos of all the tsunami's happening. And this holidays! YES, I am going to do it.....JUGGLE ! :D
This'll be me by the end of the week :P
HAHA, then I'll have to go to school...Pn Eli's centreee... YEAPP. A good holiday :)
Next, the tsunami that hit Japan :( DEVESTATION. It's amazing how an element usually signifying calmness and tranquility can tear down a country huh. If i thought having to start over again in Canada would be sucky, then imagine how bad these people have it. They're homes...gone. Teared down. Their lives...brought to a standstill and when they do get past this, there's always a possibiliy that they might have to go through it all over again. Aside those people who just lost their belongings, what about those who lost their loved ones..? Imagien thier pain. To the people in Japan who are affected, have faith. It'll be okay in the end.
Never understimate the power of the sea :)If i had an affinity with one element, I'd say water. Unbelievably calm, a necessity....unpredictable....but above all, hell hath no fury like a tsunami.
And now...moving on to more...pressing matters.
Read this today... "The secret to a succesful relationship is simple.Treat all disasters as if they were trivialities but never treat trivialities as disasters." In other words, don't let a storm in a teacup rule your life. -.-
Haih...just typed out this whole long text... And deleted it. Whateverlah.
I am happy :)Just like you wanted me to be.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Exam :O
Yoooo! Currently having exams...but here I am! :D Life's goooddd :D but i know this feeling... Just when everything gets comfortable...something comes and screws everything up, change. Whatever...I'm waiting for that drop. I feel like me now... We have Lit Night auditions this Friday... Not sure if i should try out for the Mad Hatter or not... If i do get it, its a pretty big role, the best of the play I think so yeah, its a big responsibility.
Carmen told me the most shocking unbelievable news ever... I cant believe that girl la! -.- How could she do this?! EEESH. It makes even me mad. Imagine loving someone so so damn much, they make you believe they love you too and you believe everything they say to you... And then one day, you hear they're cheating :'( And you feel that huge ache, wondering where the hell you went wrong... You can't ever forget the way they made you feel but you have to. You have to move on but each time they hold hands your heart breaks all over again... You say you're fine...but only you know how your heart wrings each time you watch them do the things you used to do together... Goshh...one day, you'll find someone that deserves you. You'll get hurt but in the end, it'll all be worth it.
Can't wait for Friday for many maaany reasons. ;) For once, I'm excited about holidayss! I'm not going anywhere but I need a break. Too much of school :S
I have to get back to memorising sejaraaah. Wish our country wasn't so fked up. At least then we'd wouldn't have a mountain for a textbook -.- CIAO.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Revelation.
It's amazing how writing and pouring up pent up emotion can make you fell huh? Whatwas a blank screen turned into three pages filled frustration and anger. I call it The Revelation :P
I dont like the way I feel now. I dont like this ME. ME needs to change.
I dont like the way I feel now. I dont like this ME. ME needs to change.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
Screweeddd...
I never thought WE would end. Never. It was always, them. Not, YOU. I wanna beg you cry plead and tell you not to go and leave me alone. But you've already made up your mind. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. For being absolutely and completely helpless. I am out of ideas. I'm sorry I wasnt there when you needed me. I can't think of a way to solve this. I am...broken. Didn't know it'd hurt so much. Come ON! Didn't we always say we'd be rock solid no matter what happened. When did we start breaking? :'( I always had someone to lean back on, fall on, but then you're dissapearing now. If you're gone, I have...no one. You're saying its not gonna work out. And...I know it wont. :( I let my feelings get in the way too much. So I'm sorry. For all the hurt, pain,cuts and the bruises. If you're leaving,I'll keep hoping someday you'll give me another chance. Hope.... When I change, I know we'll work out. At the rate the both of USS(gestures) are going, I have a feeling that day is coming soon.... Faith...trust. And a lil' bit of magic. Giving it some time. You know why I'm holding on no matter what you say, becuase God didn't make us seperate at kindergarten, make us meet back in seconday school be BFF's all over again, JUST to see us seperated again. It is NOT the end. FAITH TRUST. We'll be okay. I'm smiling. You should too. BTW, Daughtry knows exactly what I feel. You should go listen to him.
The rest. Sangeeta, you should've told me earlier... :'(
Abi, fuck it la. I dont know.
Carmen....I hope you're happy.
And now...I'll let Pitbull and Timbaland fix me up again.
The rest. Sangeeta, you should've told me earlier... :'(
Abi, fuck it la. I dont know.
Carmen....I hope you're happy.
And now...I'll let Pitbull and Timbaland fix me up again.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
M'life
This is not one of those times when I've got thousands of things in my head and I'm aching to pour them all out. This is one of those times when I've no idea what I feel like so I'm writing to help me figure it out. Found these on weheartit.com
CARAMEL.
JOLYNN. :D HAHA.
Cheers to failed plans!
Sadd :(
Hmmm...
Carmen...HAHA.
Guess who made a surprise appearance in my head?
:D
TRUE :)
I've been looking for OI pieces and i found one called The Highwayman. Its...aweseome. When u read it the first time round, you won't understand but u kinda get the gist of it. It's sad and it does hit a nerve.
Anyway, last night was a mad rush. Aggathiyen got admitted in the hospital. Something wrong wtih his intestines. Apparently the doctors pumped in some chemical called barium(?) through his anus...and it hurt so bad that he was screaming and crying. These jokers sedated him 3 hours before so when he actually went it for the op, he was more or less awake. We could hear him screaming and crying from outside the operation theatre. Sadly, the op didnt work. So they scheduled hiim for another operation at 12. This time, they were gonna cut him around the stomach and pull whatever it was out. And he's only a year old. Poor boy :( When he came out of the operation theatre the first time round, he was like...lifeless. Literally. He leaned his head back adn couldnt even lift it back up. He wasnt smiling or laughing like he always does. GC says he'll be better now but the pain from the operation will last about 3 days. Mimi chitti patti amma and gc were all crying :'( KC and Raj Chittappa just stod awkwardly in one corner watching them. Kinda comical, but it was no laughing matter...
First Aggelan, now Aggathiyen. Hopefully, Aggelan anna recovers soon. It's so unlike him to not be out partying, no offense intended. Get up soon, will ya anna? We miss you here...
School tomorrow.. :P Can't wait to get back.
Hmm...its Chelsea vs Liverpool tonight :D We r so gonna kick-ass now that we have Torres. If we lose.. Then maybe its time for Abramovich to fall on his knees and beg Hiddink to come back. Oh and maybe sell useless ppl like Obi Mikel, Essien. I mean, why the hell did they sell Ballack but keep Mikel? Where's the sense in that?? They should sell Zhirkov, Alex, Anelka too. Maybe invest in a new goalkeeper as well...? Cech is a bit rusty this season. All we need is...Terry,Ashley Cole, Ivanovic,Bosingwa,Malouda,Sturridge,Cech, Drogba, Torres...and whoever else.
Sanjee just called :P He got robbed. HAHAHAHA. Imagine this. He parked his car, went to by something, he heard tha alarm ring adn rushed out just in tiem to see two guys rushing way with his laptop bag. But here's the catch, inside that laptop bag,was a bunch of A-level course textbooks :P Stupid robbers. Sanjee's whining cos he can't study for his exams. WTH ikr! Weird cousin.
CARAMEL.
JOLYNN. :D HAHA.
Cheers to failed plans!
Sadd :(
Hmmm...
Carmen...HAHA.
Guess who made a surprise appearance in my head?
:D
TRUE :)
I've been looking for OI pieces and i found one called The Highwayman. Its...aweseome. When u read it the first time round, you won't understand but u kinda get the gist of it. It's sad and it does hit a nerve.
Anyway, last night was a mad rush. Aggathiyen got admitted in the hospital. Something wrong wtih his intestines. Apparently the doctors pumped in some chemical called barium(?) through his anus...and it hurt so bad that he was screaming and crying. These jokers sedated him 3 hours before so when he actually went it for the op, he was more or less awake. We could hear him screaming and crying from outside the operation theatre. Sadly, the op didnt work. So they scheduled hiim for another operation at 12. This time, they were gonna cut him around the stomach and pull whatever it was out. And he's only a year old. Poor boy :( When he came out of the operation theatre the first time round, he was like...lifeless. Literally. He leaned his head back adn couldnt even lift it back up. He wasnt smiling or laughing like he always does. GC says he'll be better now but the pain from the operation will last about 3 days. Mimi chitti patti amma and gc were all crying :'( KC and Raj Chittappa just stod awkwardly in one corner watching them. Kinda comical, but it was no laughing matter...
First Aggelan, now Aggathiyen. Hopefully, Aggelan anna recovers soon. It's so unlike him to not be out partying, no offense intended. Get up soon, will ya anna? We miss you here...
School tomorrow.. :P Can't wait to get back.
Hmm...its Chelsea vs Liverpool tonight :D We r so gonna kick-ass now that we have Torres. If we lose.. Then maybe its time for Abramovich to fall on his knees and beg Hiddink to come back. Oh and maybe sell useless ppl like Obi Mikel, Essien. I mean, why the hell did they sell Ballack but keep Mikel? Where's the sense in that?? They should sell Zhirkov, Alex, Anelka too. Maybe invest in a new goalkeeper as well...? Cech is a bit rusty this season. All we need is...Terry,Ashley Cole, Ivanovic,Bosingwa,Malouda,Sturridge,Cech, Drogba, Torres...and whoever else.
Sanjee just called :P He got robbed. HAHAHAHA. Imagine this. He parked his car, went to by something, he heard tha alarm ring adn rushed out just in tiem to see two guys rushing way with his laptop bag. But here's the catch, inside that laptop bag,was a bunch of A-level course textbooks :P Stupid robbers. Sanjee's whining cos he can't study for his exams. WTH ikr! Weird cousin.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Weheartit.com
Nggghhh life is so frustrating! I have nothing to look forward to! Its the same routine day in day out. Lord, let something good, fun and exciting happen to me soon!
HEHEHE, i can play like three songs on the guitar now. All campfire songs but stilll... :D Its so exciting! :P
Anyway, i wanna skip school tommorow for FUN. But...my dear mother says i should gooo... I dont wanna... Haih, I can already pictureee itt. AAAAHHHHH. Dont wanna. Dont wanna. DONT WANNA!
Things feel better with Carmen. It doesnt feel so much like she's not telling me something. Dude, if you say you're not in love, you're not. :) I believeeee youuu although dude, im never gonna stop teasing you and you know that :P
School was loads better than it has been today. Everything's slowly working themselves out...
I keep going to that weheartit.com. The stuff they have there are all so awesome and true. Some of it emo and sad, but its all so artistic and..ITS ALL TRUE!
Goign back to reading nowww :)
HEHEHE, i can play like three songs on the guitar now. All campfire songs but stilll... :D Its so exciting! :P
Anyway, i wanna skip school tommorow for FUN. But...my dear mother says i should gooo... I dont wanna... Haih, I can already pictureee itt. AAAAHHHHH. Dont wanna. Dont wanna. DONT WANNA!
Things feel better with Carmen. It doesnt feel so much like she's not telling me something. Dude, if you say you're not in love, you're not. :) I believeeee youuu although dude, im never gonna stop teasing you and you know that :P
School was loads better than it has been today. Everything's slowly working themselves out...
I keep going to that weheartit.com. The stuff they have there are all so awesome and true. Some of it emo and sad, but its all so artistic and..ITS ALL TRUE!
Goign back to reading nowww :)
Sunday, January 16, 2011
On my mind.
I am...i dont know.
Happy because I got my guitar :DDD <3 I'll post a pic of it laterr. Must learn how to play Life After You on the guitar and The Last Song on the piano <3 I'm giving myself till the end of April for Life After You and the end of CNY hols for The Last Song.
Happy because Abi's completely and absolutely all right :)
But yet, I'm kinda down.
Because I'm in your way, I know that. You know I know.
*sigh*
Kim and Shan <3 they joined Interact. HO YEAH!
I GOT MY GUITAAAARRR. Let the jamming begin. :)
What else?
Oh yeah, the party yesterday. It was...nice. I'll write about it in my diary. Thank you guys SO SO Much for the gifts :DD Jecinn and Jeyinn, Imma use the bottle XD And the rest of the gifts were awesome too :)
I hope to join a flashmob someday.(Got the idea from some vids Kim posted)
I wanna acct!!! Like properly in a play on stage. Dammit, I cant wait for Lit Nite auditions.
I wanna play football! LIKE OMG! I wanna be able to play with Aheraj without getting laughed at! I got inspiration from that ad on Astro. The one where Torres says that you can be anything you wanna be.
OH OH, I joined volleyball rite this year? Well guess what? FINALLY! LIKE FINALLY...Assunta's gonna go take part in competitions this year. Apparently some male teacher in the afternoon knows how to play volleyball so yeah... I cant wait to start playing properly again. Haaa...it's gonna be awesome. :)
Tu es toujours dans ma tete <3
Happy because I got my guitar :DDD <3 I'll post a pic of it laterr. Must learn how to play Life After You on the guitar and The Last Song on the piano <3 I'm giving myself till the end of April for Life After You and the end of CNY hols for The Last Song.
Happy because Abi's completely and absolutely all right :)
But yet, I'm kinda down.
Because I'm in your way, I know that. You know I know.
*sigh*
Kim and Shan <3 they joined Interact. HO YEAH!
I GOT MY GUITAAAARRR. Let the jamming begin. :)
What else?
Oh yeah, the party yesterday. It was...nice. I'll write about it in my diary. Thank you guys SO SO Much for the gifts :DD Jecinn and Jeyinn, Imma use the bottle XD And the rest of the gifts were awesome too :)
I hope to join a flashmob someday.(Got the idea from some vids Kim posted)
I wanna acct!!! Like properly in a play on stage. Dammit, I cant wait for Lit Nite auditions.
I wanna play football! LIKE OMG! I wanna be able to play with Aheraj without getting laughed at! I got inspiration from that ad on Astro. The one where Torres says that you can be anything you wanna be.
OH OH, I joined volleyball rite this year? Well guess what? FINALLY! LIKE FINALLY...Assunta's gonna go take part in competitions this year. Apparently some male teacher in the afternoon knows how to play volleyball so yeah... I cant wait to start playing properly again. Haaa...it's gonna be awesome. :)
Tu es toujours dans ma tete <3
Friday, January 14, 2011
I wish.
I wish I could be happy for you.
I wish to be completely emotionless and indifferent when you see what I see and when you realise what I know XD AHAHA.
I'm wondering how much of what you told me on the phone is the truth, because seriously, I never saw it like that. And now that I see it the way it is, it makes me more sad. :(
I'm waiting for this feeling to pass so I can finally be happy about the Interact thing.
My spirit should have uplifted and gone flying through the skies when I heard Shan and Kim joined Interact but still, there was 10 tonne of...........(sadness,confusion,worry,) weighing it down.
I wish I had time for EVERYONE like last year.
I wish the problems would take a break.
I wish all of us were happy.
I wish I had MORE TIME.
HAHA, there a million "Going Back" songs playing in my head now.
I wish to be completely emotionless and indifferent when you see what I see and when you realise what I know XD AHAHA.
I'm wondering how much of what you told me on the phone is the truth, because seriously, I never saw it like that. And now that I see it the way it is, it makes me more sad. :(
I'm waiting for this feeling to pass so I can finally be happy about the Interact thing.
My spirit should have uplifted and gone flying through the skies when I heard Shan and Kim joined Interact but still, there was 10 tonne of...........(sadness,confusion,worry,) weighing it down.
I wish I had time for EVERYONE like last year.
I wish the problems would take a break.
I wish all of us were happy.
I wish I had MORE TIME.
HAHA, there a million "Going Back" songs playing in my head now.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Power of Music
Once again, Timbaland has given me strength like no one else can. Because it transports me back to when.... ;)
It feels like I'm doing this really often doesnt it? I just have too much time to think right now. Maybe its a good thing that school's starting after all. Excitement has ALL evaporated. Well, partially at least. Since it's gonna be..1 siin..there's another 30 hours. WHOA.
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2ndJanuary 11.11A.M(when i am a little bit more sane)
I feel loooads better now. AAAAH i was gonna sleep till like...1? But KC's making us go with him to Mid Valley. Hence, I will stay sleep deprived for a week.
It feels like I'm doing this really often doesnt it? I just have too much time to think right now. Maybe its a good thing that school's starting after all. Excitement has ALL evaporated. Well, partially at least. Since it's gonna be..1 siin..there's another 30 hours. WHOA.
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2ndJanuary 11.11A.M(when i am a little bit more sane)
I feel loooads better now. AAAAH i was gonna sleep till like...1? But KC's making us go with him to Mid Valley. Hence, I will stay sleep deprived for a week.
New Year 2011
WOW...its 2011 already! It still hasnt sunk in yet. I was listening to Waving Flag just now and i said something like "Do you remmber how much we were lookign forward to the World Cup this year?"
And Dheepa's like, "Last year."
I was like, "What last year...OH. Right. Last year."
I wanted to cry.
JANUARY 1 2011, has finally sunk in. The World Cup year is OVER. Wont be back for another 4 years. And the countdown begins again... :)
Suddenly, I dont want the holidays to end. I don't want to go back to school.
"You don't know what you've got till its gone".
How true now. Yeeesh. If i could rewind, I'd have savoured all that alone time. Jeez.
I don't wanna grow older! I wanna live in the past. I wanna...haih. I just keep wanting. When will we ever stop wanting and start making the best of what I'm given? Thats what I'm gonna do this year. I'll stop wanting, instead, I'll start making the best of what I have.
Dayumn, I still feel so...dissatisfied? It's the wanting feeling. Eerrgh this is frustrating. I want..i dont know what. YEAAARRGH. New Year's here. So why dont I feel any different?
William Shakespeare-Don’t believe the things you tell yourself so late at night. you are your own worst enemy, you’ll never win the fight.
How true.
You're all one phone call away so how come I dont want to pick that phone up an dial??!
I am now listening to Timbaland's the way i are in the hopes that it'll make me feel better :')
And Dheepa's like, "Last year."
I was like, "What last year...OH. Right. Last year."
I wanted to cry.
JANUARY 1 2011, has finally sunk in. The World Cup year is OVER. Wont be back for another 4 years. And the countdown begins again... :)
Suddenly, I dont want the holidays to end. I don't want to go back to school.
"You don't know what you've got till its gone".
How true now. Yeeesh. If i could rewind, I'd have savoured all that alone time. Jeez.
I don't wanna grow older! I wanna live in the past. I wanna...haih. I just keep wanting. When will we ever stop wanting and start making the best of what I'm given? Thats what I'm gonna do this year. I'll stop wanting, instead, I'll start making the best of what I have.
Dayumn, I still feel so...dissatisfied? It's the wanting feeling. Eerrgh this is frustrating. I want..i dont know what. YEAAARRGH. New Year's here. So why dont I feel any different?
William Shakespeare-Don’t believe the things you tell yourself so late at night. you are your own worst enemy, you’ll never win the fight.
How true.
You're all one phone call away so how come I dont want to pick that phone up an dial??!
I am now listening to Timbaland's the way i are in the hopes that it'll make me feel better :')
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